When you feel hopeless...

The Conference was great, don't get me wrong. BUT, I have spent today just feeling sick to my stomach about what I have done. Not today, not yesterday, but just new realizations of how I've turned my back so many times. I understand the grace I have been given, but right now, I don't believe it. People try to make is so simple, but if I DO NOT get the accountability I need with SOMEONE, nothing is going to change in my life. I want change. I NEED change.