Wednesday, April 22, 2009

New favorite verse!

James 4:7

7 So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

It's beautiful

It's beautiful by EleventySeven.
One of my favorite songs and my most played right now.
I really enjoy the way it talks about what Christ
turns us into and how beautiful that really is.



Here's just part of the song I really like


Despite the grace that I dismissed
Forgiveness was the catalyst
To penetrate my heart with what is true...

Redeem the years I've thrown away
I'm ready to make good on what I've wasted
I'm asking You to shape my heart
I want to be Your work of art
'Cause when You change me
And make me more like You
It's beautiful.



and THAT is what I truly desire. Make me more like you.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Hold while I throw up on the window...

I hate being sick. and I am sick so I kinda hate any time when I'm not sleeping right now.

  • My new best friend's in the world are Fisherman's Friends, and Elisa for introducing me to them. Unfortunately they got left at work yesterday and so I am about to die without them.
  • Food looks really gross when you are concerned about something else making you sick
  • I had to work and go to class while sick (bummer). Welcome to the real world: No snow days....or sick days either

  • I'm feeling quite random and that's why I am typing in bullets. Random and no real point to them....but they sure do look cool.

  • And how about we show a little love for the Pens who knocked up the Flyers tonight! :D.

  • This playoff series won't be much of a contest...and the Pens will win easily in 5 or 6.
  • I will be happy in a few weeks when the Flyers and Sixers are both knocked out of the playoffs as I happily watch the Penguins,Hurricanes,Cavaliers,and Spurs play on for a Championship.

This ends the random and unsorted bullet post.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Tuesday Ten

Things I'm thankful for today!

1. Jesus rose from the dead :) The ultimate sacrifice turned into the ultimate triumph of sin.
2. On Sunday I was able to see many friends from Covenant I have not seen in months.
3. My family came up from Virginia for the weekend and I was able to spend some time with them.
4. Today I took 3 test for my computers class, which was a big step in catching up on school.
5. I did better on the tests than I thought I would. I knew more of the material so my grades on them should be pretty good.
6. I only have 4 more weeks of school.
7. I went into work today. As much as I may not like my job, I have a job, locally. I am learning to be thankful for what I have since some people can't even get a job.
8. I am beginning to figure out my plans for the fall school-wise.
9. My sister got back to Pittsburgh safely today. Mom,Sam, and the girls also arrived safely in Fredericksburgh.
10. God is in control of every situation in my life, even when I don't understand them or like certain situations.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Losing Control.

I got onto blog about something else on my mind, but it was all planned out. I don't like to blog when I plan posts out. I like to go sentence to sentence and tell you what's on my mind. It's a way to be honest and genuine. No sugar coating...no faking it, but plenty of misplaced and jumbled words I'm sure.
as a short update....let's just say life seems a little to crazy for me to handle right now. I feel like I'm losing control of myself. School is becoming more complicated as the semester continues. I still feel behind. Work is busy as ever... and conflicts arise as I begin to know these people.
Relationships seem somewhat torn but hopeful that though I may not like certain rules and restrictions placed in many of the relationships around me....they are always for a purpose, and are often good for me.


This week was spring break, but instead I feel more crammed and running out of time and patience then when I didn't have a break.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Don't let me die.

I read this yesterday in 'Leadership' as I did my devotions. It was speaking about Eli. A well respected man as a religous leader, yet he couldn't get it done at home.
The book says
This reverend judge in Israel failed to discipline his two sons...Elisa lost his job, and eventually his life... If we do not faithfully lead our own households, we lack the qualifications to work beyond the home... Eli made some crucial errors.
  1. Emphasis- Eli emphasized teaching his colleagues and clients, not his famiy.
  2. Example-Eli failed to live out in his home what he taught at work.
  3. Entanglements- Eli got so caught up with his profession, he blinded himself to his failu
Wow. I certainly hope that will not be me. As I pursue a relationship with the hope of pushing towards becoming a husband and father who is a leader, I really thought about this as I read. All I could keep thinking was 'Please don't let this be me'. My exact prayer was
Lord, teach me NOW how to be the head of a family so that I may teach my children what is right. I don't want to die because I did not properlly,biblically, teach them what is right. I don't want them to live their life not listening to authority as I sadly, often did. Teach them your ways because I don't want them to have to learn everything the hard way or to die because they do not listen.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Where life is at today

Where Am I?

I'm trying to figure that out so I break it down into sections.

1. Lonely- I miss my granmother now with Jesus, I miss my family down in North Carolina, and those also in Virginia. I miss them all more than ever.

2. Not lonely- After 11 days away, I was finally able to see Elisa, my dad, and friends in PA again. I missed them and am glad to be back with them.

3. Frustrated- After almost 2 weeks away, I got behind in school. I came back and have been cramming all week... and now tomorrow I have a huge biology exam tomorrow that I don't feel prepared for. I studied for days for the last one...and got a D. I feel less prepared this time and honestly am frustrated beyond belief. I don't know what I am going to do. I guess I just have to leave it at 'I've done my best to prepare for this test', and leave the rest up to God.

4, Renewed and Hopeful.

Becoming that leader.

I've had struggles for months with trying to read my bible on a daily basis. So how to handle an issue like this? Cut back on the time and reading right? I missed the logic of that... so I not only increased the amount I was reading...but also the times I would read.

I couldn't handle reading it once a day...so now it will be twice a day..,

Morning and Evening, which just so happens to be the title of the book (by Charles Spurgeon) I am using for my devotions. I am also going through Leadership: Promises for Every Day (by John C. Maxwell). I did not give God once per day...so let's see if I can give him twice a day, and make a way to work it into my schedule. It's been a long battle, but I want to give him my all...and knowing that he will take it leaves me hopeful.




That's about all that's up in the life of John. Never Boring :)




My heart sings a brand new song.
The debt is paid, these chains are gone.
All that is within me cries
For You alone be glorified:
Emmanuel, God with us.-Mercy Me

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

INFILTRATE

I’m a part of the Fellowship of the Unashamed.


I’ve stepped over the line.
The decision has been made.
I’m a disciple of His.
I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away or be still.
My past redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure.

I’m finished and done with low living, sidewalking, small-planning, smooth-knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, worldly-talking, cheap-giving, and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need pre-eminence, position, promotion, applause or popularity.
I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded.

I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk by patience.
I’m uplifted by prayer, and labor by power.
My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions are few, my God reliable.
My mission is clear.
I cannot be bumped, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed.
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of my adversaries, negotiate at the table of my enemy or ponder at the pool of popularity.
I won’t give up, shut up, let up until I’ve stayed up, stored up, prayed up, preached up for the cause of Christ.
I am a DISCIPLE OF JESUS.