Being Homeless...

So....for those of you who don't know, I am kinda living out of my car right now. I was told by my parents to leave on Saturday. It honestly has been the worst 3 days of my life. I am sick to the stomach that it has come to this. I have spent the past few days with friends, talking to those I respect about what I should do. My parents are willing to let me come home, but I would need to get a full time job to do so. I'm not sure where this leaves me in terms of school right now or in the future. I've spent 3 days alone, and it really has been the worst 3 days of my life. I left thinking "Thank God, I'm finally getting away" and instead, its been 3 days of tears and feeling alone. I want to go home more than anything I've ever wanted before. You never know what you got till its gone, and the grass is certainly not greener on the other side. In fact, my "grass" has been brown or dead and there's not a green patch anywhere.

I'm ready to go back to that other side. I want to be able to confess my sins without expectations, and want to beg for forgiveness a lot like the story of the prodigal son.

Luke 15:11-32 (New International Version)

The Parable of the Lost Son

11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father.
"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.'

22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

25"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

28"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

31" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "