Ah. What a great song.
"It is well with my soul".
Always one of my favorites and so re-assuring. But in this moment...I question it.
My aunt has played this song the last to nights on the piano as I was falling asleep. Both nights I found it hard to not cry. Last night I just broke down.
I can say I'm ready for her to go to 'be in a better place', but really I find it rather uneasy that she will not be here anymore. I find it hard to believe I could wake up tomorrow and she would be gone.
I told myself I would be fine and ok with her dying, but wanted to be here to support the rest of my family.
I was wrong. I'm not ok. I'm not ready for this, and right now, honestly nothing feels well within my soul.
The peace I thought I had, isn't really there. The strength I though I had to hold back the tears is gone.
Right now I am not at peace.
Maybe I just need a good night's sleep
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It might not be well with your soul for awhile. But someday it will be. Death isn't easy no matter how much you try to prepare yourself for it.
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