I'm sick of the fighting between me and my parents. Its not like it happens alot, in fact the arguments are few and far between. By God's grace we get along very well for the most part now, and its good to, because 15 months ago, I was ready to rip out all of my hair. But sometimes the arguments still happen and they just make me want to flip out. I have tried to leave the argument. For instance, Sunday morning I got up @ 7 AM, got ready for church, ect. and then went to my dad's house in Reading. Got there about 9 AM and tried to set up the wireless router I had (not exactly the best time to do it, right before going to worship God) So anyway... I start pulling stuff apart to plug in the router. So after taking some time to get it working, I couldn't get it and just put the computer back the way it was. So he gets on and is trying to get on his email, and starts flipping out so I tried to talk him into calming down and when he wouldn't I said "Ok I'm going then" and then he was like "don't make me feel bad now". The idea was never to make him "feel bad" but rather to avoid a fight. I spent the first 10 years of my life listening to my 2 parents argue back and forth and the past seven arguing with them to get my way. I'm sick of it and I'm not going to be the person to win every argument. Instead I'm going to walk out the door if need be. That's what I did and I stopped for a snack and cofee at sheetz and then I got up to Frieden's at like 10:20-10:30
if that's what it takes to avoid the arguments...I'm gonna do it
In other news, I ordered the book "When God writes your love story" the other day off of half.com and it arrived so I think I will begin reading it, because I know that after months of hope and now heartache, it's time for me to say "this is all yours, I'm done worrying about who I will be with and when " and just let go and live the life of a single person which is right where He wants me right now. I'm ready for God to write my love story, even if the final copy won't be "published" for a few years. I'm waiting
ok I'm done
I find myself rambling @ times.
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